It's now one month since my Doctor declared me cured of leukemia stopped all medications and cleared me to start living my life again. I auditioned for a role in "Jesus Christ Superstar" and was chosen for the ensemble and they are creating a featured role for me as Mary mother of Christ. I also joined a writers group and have pulled my writing out from the bottom of a plastic storage box. I attended the first meeting on Saturday and submitted my first piece for critique for the next meeting. There's also a play writing group I joined even though I haven't attempted a play since high school. I have all this dialogue streaming around in my head looking for a place to land so I'm going to focus and channel it into a play. A play about family, which is what most plays are all about. Finding the discipline to write everyday will be the next challenge.
My garden has finally succumbed to the first frosty winter weather and I'm eating the last of the hearty mustard greens,fennel and Swiss chard. The beets and herbs are still growing so I'm leaving them. Then I'll cover the beds with composted leaves and make a plan for the Spring.
I've signed up for okcupid and wish there was a more romantic and magical way to connect with the our possible mates. I was having trouble finding men in my age group so I paid for one month of seniorpeoplemeet . I got lots of hits from all over the country after I put into the first line of the profile saying I'm not interested in chat, IM or long distance relationships! Why do so many old guys have huge motorcycles? I have to wonder if they aren't trying to compensate for something lacking in their lives. I can't figure out what they're thinking with prominent photos of the beloved bike on their profile. Are there really that many biker babes looking for a ride ? I've also noted that most of the biker boys have never been married or have kids. If you're in your 50's to 60's and have never been married or raised a child that raises question marks for me about whether this person can sustain a relationship. I'm sure there are exceptions but I'm not very confident that they will be right for me. So what am I really looking for anyway ? I'm not in a space to "live on love" but rather I need someone who is self sustaining and can afford dinner and a movie or a night at a jazz club or theater tickets for both of us. Someone who can speak and write literately. You would not believe some of the letters I've received ! Someone who is fit and takes care of themselves and doesn't have any really weird dietary restrictions. I guess open minded and interested in current affairs and with a sense of humor. Already I think I'm asking too much. It makes me wonder if I shouldn't just accept that I'm pretty good on my own. Then I look at the wonderful meal I've cooked and wish I could share it with an appreciative partner, and I also miss the kissing and cuddling. So what's a girl to do ?
I have to go for a repeat blood test tomorrow because the routine follow up test I had last week showed a low platelet count it's 95,000 when normal is 150,000 to 450,000. Just one more lingering side effect of chemotherapy I'm told. I'm still at a 70% risk of relapse over the next two to five years so any set back is worrisome. I still feel very good and plan to go to the gym today although with counts under 100,000 I'm vulnerable to bruising and bleeding so I'll be swimming laps.
Photo is me modeling for a famous New York fashion photographer in 1969.
